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So...

I have a recurring dream about war and protecting my family who wont listen to orders. It's always out at Grandmas house. I've had them for years.

So, when a dream starts out at grandmas house I pretty much go straight for the guns because I know what's coming and it's time to get shit in gear.

NOT THIS TIME!

I was very confused in my dream. This is not the standard plan. We're under attack. Grandmas is home base. We need to reinforce and prepare for battle.

"Not today love," he says. "Come sit with me."

And I slid into my grandmothers breakfast nook next to Ziggy Stardust as he talked to me gently about how to pilot grandmas house, because it wasn't a fort. It was a spaceship.

And I'm still weepy about it because I haven't had a zombie dream since and he was so terribly gentle and patient and in my dream I loved him so.

I know what Kyria would have made of this.

Gods, I miss her so much sometimes it hurts.

Severus Snape 2016 Goodbye P

This was written the day Alan died and LJ is saying I never posted it.

I'm sitting here crying like a maniac and have been since the 10th. Like I wasn't a complete wreck over Bowie. I've been completely useless this week.

And here I am, 12 years later, going back to DJing because there's nothing left of me to give.

So here's my playlist for Snape because I can't do anything else:





1. Severus and Stone:
Don't cry for me, I'm where I'm supposed to be...

2. The Scientist:
No one said it was easy, no one said it would be that hard...

3. Love Me Like You Do:
Let me take you past our satellites, you can see the world you brought to life

4. Easy Heaven (The Cure Vs. the Commodores):
Show me how you do it, and I promise you, I'll run away with you

5. The Man Who Sold the World:
He said I was his friend, which came as some surprise, I spoke into his eyes, I thought you died alone, a long long time ago

6. You be the Vampire and I'll be the Werewolf:
you be the vampire I'll be the werewolf and we'll be together always

7. Her Melancholy Muse
She hears the call and can't refuse, her melancholy muse

8. Beggin' for Thread
strapped down to something you don't understand, don't know what you were getting yourself into, you should have known, secretly I think you knew

9. Sound of Silence
In restless dreams I walked alone, narrow streets of cobblestone

10. The End of an Era
Don't you ever wonder what will happen when it ends, how can we let go of the ones we call friends

Severus Snape 2016 Goodbye P

I'm sitting here crying like a maniac and have been since the 10th. Like I wasn't a complete wreck over Bowie. I've been completely useless this week.

And here I am, 12 years later, going back to DJing because there's nothing left of me to give.

So here's my playlist for Snape because I can't do anything else:





1. Severus and Stone:
Don't cry for me, I'm where I'm supposed to be...

2. The Scientist:
No one said it was easy, no one said it would be that hard...

3. Love Me Like You Do:
Let me take you past our satellites, you can see the world you brought to life

4. Easy Heaven (The Cure Vs. the Commodores):
Show me how you do it, and I promise you, I'll run away with you

5. The Man Who Sold the World:
He said I was his friend, which came as some surprise, I spoke into his eyes, I thought you died alone, a long long time ago

6. You be the Vampire and I'll be the Werewolf:
you be the vampire I'll be the werewolf and we'll be together always

7. Her Melancholy Muse
She hears the call and can't refuse, her melancholy muse

8. Beggin' for Thread
strapped down to something you don't understand, don't know what you were getting yourself into, you should have known, secretly I think you knew

9. Sound of Silence
In restless dreams I walked alone, narrow streets of cobblestone

10. The End of an Era
Don't you ever wonder what will happen when it ends, how can we let go of the ones we call friends

Jan. 14th, 2016

So, I wrote a bit of poetry for a Bowie tribute.

I need concrit.

http://teshara.tumblr.com/post/137312025445/stop-all-of-time-silence-the-cock-stop-the

Also, I took the poem Funeral Blues and changed the words. I say it's transformative work and credit is given.

Mark says if you change the words in a poem, even if it has the same cadence, it's original work. I don't believe I changed enough to call it original, but I think a discussion on where the line is drawn for that type of thing would be very interesting, so go ahead.

Dec. 17th, 2015

I was thinking about why I didn't really like Star Wars, and the deal was, it was episode 5 and I despised prequels. Nothing was explained, and I couldn't understand how the eff a monarchy was supposed to work in space when it was obvious the princess had less power than a grasshopper and there were no rulers above her. Princess of what? Nothing, that's what.

When I was older my first experience with the fandom was a friend that had a crush on me writing me as a self-insert Mary-Sue into his fanfic. It started with a shower scene. No joke.

I will make allowances for Ewoks because they are secretly Guernevillians (From guerneville, in Ca.) and Warwick Davis is Wickett. I saw him in his costume with his head off on the Making of Return of the Jedi on TV and lost my mind. All those lovely red curls.

So, I will probably see a pirated version of the movie this weekend because I can't do the theaters at the best of times, let alone when it's going to be that crazypants insane. I'm sure Mark will tell me all about it.

But I will say, I love Leia and her outfit. Now she looks like a bloody rebel princess. I bet she outshoots Han. I bet it turns him on.

Uh oh.

You know, this is how the Harry Potter thing got started...

Derp

If you join a fest remember to watch the damn thing, Tesh. Sheesh.

My awesome gift was posted:
http://sshg-giftfest.livejournal.com/37125.html

7000+ words
Summary: Fifty years ago, during the Great Battle of Hogwarts, the body of Severus Snape went missing. It's time for the children to hear the story of what really happened.

Modern fairy tale. Weepy. Amazingness.

ZOMG Fail

I went to the mall and pretty much bought stuff for me. Total fail.

However, I do have super-cute sweater and new underwear to show for it. Also a bag from Sephora that I'm not talking about.

I did find the perfect presents for Mark and his brothers. I told Mark about it just so he can be prepared. He's already plotting. I'm already regretting it. It must be perfect.

I got them actual wood and rubber slingshots with a leather pocket for whatever.

I told him I'm taking them away if they break anything or upset their mother.

My boys are 49,46, and 43.

Pray for me.

What the Everloving FUCK?!?!?!?!?!

So me and Mark went to a house showing on Thursday. Got there, house had been burgled by previous tenants. They broke pipes in the basement and tried to flood the house, but it all went down a drain. We knew that.

Today I go by and the handyman's there and I talk to him and he starts telling me how lucky we were. I'm totally confused.

Turns out they broke the gas main and tried to rig it up so the house would explode. When we turned on the lights it was supposed to make a spark and we're supposed to be dead.

I am so upset and angry and want to hunt these people down, but Mark has reminded me that tribal warfare has been outlawed and if I go full valkyrie I'd probably get arrested.

I say this will out the perps and get them in the news for what they did so everyone will know, we have no children to embarrass, and I'm really ready to sucker punch some asshat.

So angry I cussed everyone that I possibly could and get away with it. I threatened to strangle the company's lawyer. (He seriously deserves it for another hair-pulling incident.)

I feel like I should feel bad, but not a whit. Someone tried to fucking blow me up!

Dec. 4th, 2015

I do not know what I did to make Santa so happy with me.

I had a dream that I was dating David McCallum as Ducky, but he rejected me for not being skinny or smart enough. I have found out the difference between being a girl and a woman because instead of waking up sad, I woke up awfully indignant.

Last night I had a dream that I was at a party and was still irritated so I blew off Ducky and ran off with Severus Snape.

Severus was a better kisser anyway, and having a secret rendezvous under the invisability cloak should have been made a fandom trope a decade ago.

:: fans self ::

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Jessica Jones Season 1 Review Spoiler-ish

Finished with Jessica Jones. Totally rec it, but for what reasons, I'm torn.
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So, I really enjoyed the show, but David Tennant made me feel dirty and I'm still not sure if it's in a good or bad way, but I liked it.

Also: I find this very strange because I was not at all attracted to Ten in the least. Eleven? Oh yes! Capaldi? I'm sure I could wreck some sturdy furniture with that man. But Ten? Uh... I'd want him for my wacky cousin and he's a cutie, but sexy? Noooooo.....

TV: Jessica Jones 1-3 Review

Copied from Facebook:

ok, so Mark started watching Jessica Jones last night and I know about it and you all know how I heckle everything, and this was particularly amazing, so here goes:

EPISODE 1-3
David Tennant is a superhuman with mind control. WAIT!!! Scratch that. David Tennant is a rapist that uses mind control. The reason that has been changed is because instead of collecting money, power, fame, etc. he uses his powers to get laid and to get revenge on anyone preventing him from getting laid.

Please do not tell me that 'oh, well he uses his 'girlfriends' for doing bad things... Well guess what? So do a lot of guys and they don't have to be superhuman, so as far as I can tell David Tennant's abilities are centered around the lonliness of his crotch. Maybe that's why everything's purple.

Jessica Jones is a TV show about David Tennants magic dick.
While being unintentionally hilarious, its not doing what it set out to do. They try to offset everything by adding seriously creepy rapey scenes to make you feel bad about it and I'm not sure it's enough to make it work.

It's like watching David Bowie in Labyrinth and knowing he's a kidnapper and a rapist and STILL getting a cocky grin on your face whenever that package swaggers into the room.

It's Labyrinth for Grownups without Bowie's package and with David Tennants purple magic wang.

Of course I'm going to keep watching. ARE YOU KIDDING?!?!

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Nov. 19th, 2015

In the middle of chaos and WTFery:

"So, I found out I'm Jewish."
"That's great!"
"?"
"Now you can work in Hollywood!"


::headdesk:: LOL!

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Nov. 14th, 2015

I just did something completely wrong with Marriage Law. I may cut it. Part of me wants to post it before I change my mind.

Nov. 9th, 2015

I've decided that the Downton Abbey version of Hermione/Snape is Septimus/Edith.

She really does need to have someone with street smarts to look after her. Her men are far too delicate.

They need to make a crime fighting team with Thomas as the nanny.

I would watch the shit out of that show.

Coming Soon:

Sep. 23rd, 2015

I am getting sick of hearing moaning about Dumbledore and leaving a baby on a doorstep.

It's a British effing trope. It was a magical kidnap-cold-poop-hungry proof basket.

Done.

When JKR was writing the first book it wasn't supposed to be a literary masterpiece, it was a book about magic and she wrote it in a coffeeshop.

No one leaves babies on doorsteps. They did it on Call the Midwife once and the people in the show were hysterical.

Seriously, the only other option was to have him grow up at Hogwarts and he would have been playing with a baby basilisk by the time he was four.

Sep. 4th, 2015

I had a dream last night where Pat called to say his death had been faked and he was in Poland, secretly, for the US government because of the cold war.

Then he came to visit and looked like a redhead I dated years ago. I told him he couldn't be Pat because his freckles hadn't been configured correctly.

Gotta love stress dreams.

Oh, jeez...

Only I could go to the wrong house for the rental agency, stay for an hour and make a new fandom friend LOL!

We're like moths and we're all on fire. Muahahahaha!!!

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Chapter 50 of Marriage Law is done. Someone reminded me that I haven't had much smut lately, and I tried to write it, I really did, but it ended up being married sex. While that is usually better than smutty sex, it doesn't look like it on the page. hmmm...

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I edited Skulking for fanfiction.net. The original needs to go up on AO3. People are crying for it LOL! Those little foxes get everyone!

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The one-shot I wrote a couple days ago has been pecking at the back of my mind. It's practically original fiction. I started tinkering with it, then had a big glass of wine, ripped it to shreds, cussed it out, and put it back together. It has promise.

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I'm leaving for California on the 24th. I am already panicking. I talked to my shrink today.

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In the last 7 days I have lost 2 fandom people, one RL person, and an uncle. What the hell is going on?!

I posted Fic today!!

http://archiveofourown.org/works/4338815

For the Long-Lost Hogwarts letter challenge. I don't know how it turned into horror. I blame it on reading that Minnow Bly book yesterday. Rated Teen.

OH, God, I am Penny!!!

So, I have bits and bobs I make on Etsy and I sell a couple to Mark's brother and that's it.

Until yesterday.

Yesterday I was asked if I could make 200 of one design for a wedding.

That would mean a million billion dollars.

I'm feeling faint.

Oh, slutty kitchen table, you are getting closer to me!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

(If you don't know, Mark thinks I'm an awful organizer and hired one. She is awesomsauce. However I get to restyle the ENTIRE house. I have found a sexy kitchen table that is just asking to be put in my kitchen nook, but it is $800, which is obscene.)

Jun. 15th, 2015

I updated Marriage Law, finally :D

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/1594473/1/The-Marriage-Law

I don't know where it came from, but I'm glad it's back/

Jun. 10th, 2015

AAAHHHH!

RUNAWAY CHAPTER!!

WHERE IS IT GOING?

NO ONE KNOWS!!

...

Holy Crap

In four hours I will officially have a Mr. Tesh.

I am crying and spazzing out and I can't stop. I promised I would be fine with everything and I wouldn't get funny, and I've held it all in until today and now I can't stop.

For some reason I'm crying over Pat, and I'm crying that Salem is still missing, and I'm crying because literally all the people that will be there for my side is my shrink. Honest to God. Everyone else is injured and broke, which is totally no ones fault.

And I want you guys there!

::bawls::

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Um... Woah....

So, I'm always sleepy and achy. Pat and me used to have huge fights over it. He called me lazy. I insisted I'm normal and then all of a sudden I'm wiped and have to sleep NOW.

I got a rash on my nose. It's been going on for quite a while and I finally got in to a dermatologist. They took some testing. At one point they had like 7 doctors in my room to look at me nose.

I should have known something was wrong, but they're a teaching hospital so I didn't think anything of it. I should have.

Call, Dr. House. It is Lupus.

They don't know how long it's been eating at me. They don't know if any of my organs have already been damaged. They can't tell me ANYTHING more until March. I could be dead by March, I'm not going to lie.

Mark gave me my engagement ring. I'm wearing it, but we don't know if I'd get better health care on my own or with his coverage, so we don't know what kind of wedding we're going to have. It just might be a religious ceremony without papers to complicate things.

I could live 20 years or I could die next week. What the hell am I supposed to do with myself?

I know, I know, finish Marriage Law LOL!

I DO understand that I'm being terribly melodramatic and I'm probably not going to kick it anytime soon, but they can't see me again until March! I'm allowed to staple the back of my hand to my forehead for a week. And we called all over and no one can see me until then, so I'm, all wound up.

Mark hired me to be a ghostwriter for a book he's been planning forever, so I've been tinkering with that. Then last week something just clicked and I started writing and drawing all day. It's like Marriage Law all over again.

The jittery nervousness actually does wonders for my writing. I'm officially a spaz.

We're going to start going to cons more often. I might start cosplaying, and not just as Nymeria the Sexy Direwolf. No time like the present to start doing all the stuff on my to-do list.

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What's Going on with WIKTT?

I posted a notice about Marriage Law being updated, on WIKTT, and I just got a notice that in 14 days it hadn't been approved and is bouncing back to me.

What the fuck?!?!

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Sep. 29th, 2014

I just realized I can't deal with Snape as a rockstar fic because it reminds me of Steve Vai and I can't stop giggling.

In other news: Steve Vai is a Slytherin...

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Hmmm

Well, I decided to move all the covers to my fanfic over to ff.net so they're the same all over. So far I've found 6 stories not on my ff.net page. They need to be posted.

Every time I start trying to organize everything it's so much work!

Marriage Law Has Been Updated

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/1594473/47/The-Marriage-Law

I know, I know. Hell must have frozen over....

Aug. 4th, 2014

I just realized that if you count the epilogue, the HP books end with Harry at the same age Snape was in book 1.

:: FEELS ::

in line!!!

erm.....ok.....


boyfriend wants to go to Peru. his brother thinks it will be warm... in the mountains.

 

LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!

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Feb. 3rd, 2014

James is Hermione's and Harry just has custody.

#epilogueconspiricies

Merry Christmas!

                                  

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Nov. 7th, 2013

Back room is cleared.

Started to make dinner. browned chicken. Put in water. Started feeling ill.

Turned on TV. Watched a bit of a show on acid. They threw some bits of bone in a wash and I had to run to the bathroom to puke my brains out.

I'm the one that shook down Pat's body to see what they did. I watch surgeries. I like autopsies.

The pregnancy test was negative....

I got the packet from the transplant people today. They took his brain, his tissue, and his bones. They left most of his organs.

I read Pat's picture the letter they sent and listed off all of the things they took. By that time I was crying.

Then I got to one word.

Adipose.

Then I busted up and had to run around the living room laughing and squealing.

If you watch Doctor Who you'll understand why that's so funny.

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Nov. 6th, 2013

For some dumb reason, I trashed my cost list for the BPAL salt scrub. Now I have to do it again because...

==dun dun DUN==

I actually made scrub today. I know, hell has frozen over. They smell lovely. Thinking about candles. Does BPAL already make candles? If they don't, they should.

4 unscented,
4 The Floating Market from the Neverwhere series from BPAL,
4 Drink Me from the BPAL Alice in Wonderland collection.
5 Lady Death from BPAL

And that's just 1 batch. I have enough to do another, and after that, I still have bulk of everything except for sea salt.

Just realized they're dye free.While that can be a good thing, it would have been fun to put layered colors in the Neverwhere cups. Oh well.

OK, just tested them out. LOLOMG not for faces! The salt is too coarse, but it's PERFECT for feet and elbows.

My face tingles...

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Shows I am watching

Reign, A Young Doctor's Notebook, Big Bang Theory, NCIS, Bones, Downton Abbey, Doctor Who, Grimm, Once Upon a Time in Wonderland, American Horror Story: Coven, Ripper Street, Game of Thrones, The Borgias, True Blood

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SQUEAL!!!




THE HP FANFIC FAN POLL AWARDS - FALL-WINTER ROUND 2013
Rules, Timelines, and How to Nominate a Fic

To Make Nominations/Ask Questions: hpfanficfanpollmod@gmail.com
Nomination period: October 1st - October 28th, 2013
Voting period: November 1st - December 31st, 2013
Winners announced: by January 10th, 2014




I'm being nominated for Best Comedy! Vote for me! (If you think I deserve it, I don't know who I'm up against.)

http://asylums.insanejournal.com/hp_beholder/102383.html

Clue: Grimm Edition

Originally posted by hourglass244 at Clue: Grimm Edition
These are just the cards and the clue sheet.  I'm going to work on the game board next, but that's a pretty long process.  Also, I'd like to issue a special thanks to hyndara71 for all her help!

Higher resolution images can be found here.

Clue: Grimm EditionCollapse )

ETA: The game board is finished!  (As always, higher resolution images can be found at my Photobucket account - see link above.)
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Check out my other Clue games:
- Torchwood
- White Collar

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